carnivxre - turned out i was the devil Lyrics

Turned out to be the devil
Every word I say, hold against my temple
Its the gun, cocked back inside my brain
I'm insane to leave that bitch
Had you in my nest, but dropped you dead
I could not understand the difference
We living in
I had you in my triple six
My soul was yours to take
Suicide every day since you left me
Never give myself away for free
I tried so hard to make it work
Cuticles fill up with dirt
Reveal your sins, I had to stay alert
Twist and turn
Memories can't leave my head
The leeches sucking on my veins
I do not feel no pain, no more
No feelings left to show, forever numb
Turned out I was the devil
Turned out I couldn't handle all the pressure I told you I could
My message came across so fast
I made you look past
Everything we said, about the future we could have
Since you left I'm turning back to all the drugs
But the space you leave is so big
Need several bitches to compete
They give me icks
Turned out you are the clean
Sheets be dirty, it was me who was the beast
I couldn't see
I was blinded by the beauty you possess
You made a mess
I clean it up
You was the queen, jumping boards
I'm trapped inside my mind
Suicide, I'm too alive
Turned out I was the devil
Turned out I was the devil