a better me Video (MV)

I want clear skin
Cut my split ends
And my shitty relationships
Why do I put up with it?
Wish I could shape shift
Into clothes that don't fit
I'm wearing myself too thin
If only I was disciplined
Cause she's so pretty
And I'm so tired
She makes it look easy
To live that life
There isn't a difference
Between her and I
But she likes to stay grounded
And I stay high
I rob myself of my own happiness
I try so hard, but nothing ever sticks
I wonder if she struggles like me
If her life is really like what it seems
If I stopped going to parties and went to Pilates
Maybe I'd feel much better 'bout my body
I wonder how nice it would be
If I was just a better me
I feel guilty
Cause I don't get much sleep
And I keep eating after 8
I keep messing up the day
Cause she's so pretty
And I'm so tired
She makes it look easy
To live that life
There isn't a difference
Between her and I
But I'll never be as lovely
Even though I'm trying
I rob myself of my own happiness
I try so hard, but nothing ever sticks
I wonder if she struggles like me
If her life is really like what it seems
If I stopped going to parties and went to Pilates
Maybe I'd feel much better 'bout my body
I wonder how nice it would be
If I was just a better me
Dragged out of bed
I made it to the gym
I wish doing my best
Was good enough for them
Good enough for them
I rob myself of my own happiness
I try so hard, but nothing ever sticks
I wonder if she struggles like me
If her life is really like what it seems
If I stopped going to parties and went to Pilates
Maybe I'd feel much better 'bout my body
I wonder how nice it would be
If I was just a better me