Change My Brain With Cakes - If I Died Today Lyrics

Sometimes, I try to make believe
But everyday, it seems so weak
I try to figure out all alone
In this world what is wrong
I can't see clearly what I need
It's a dream buried in the deep
Can I get it out of my chest
Lost inside it's hard to say
I've never been the one who talks that much
I always keep everything inside
A little afraid to get in touch
I'm not scared just shy
I've always been afraid to use my voice
A great passion hindered by this fear
I don't wanna live like this I make a choice
I'm tired of drowning in my tears
What if I close my eyes
And try to make something with my life
I don't wanna die without even trying
I lack self-confidence, how can they believe in me
If I don't trust myself it's something I have to change
I wanna be, wanna be proud of myself
And stop pretending I don't want more
It's just a lie, I wanna spread my wings and fly to the sky
Like I'm invincible, there's no limit
If I die today, I die with nothing
It seems so far, impossible to reach
But I'd blame myself if I didn't try for real
If I die today, I die with nothing