Charlie - something I never really had Lyrics

I know that I should want this
It's always been this way
If I change my life, choose a different path
Will the pain just go away?
I'm holding on to something I never really had
If it was never mine, then why do I still feel so f*cking sad?
Cause I'm fraud and I can see
You're all disappointed in me
I don't even know who I wanna be (ooh)
Yeah, half my life is just an act
How can't anyone see that?
If I could, would I go back?
Back to who I used to be
(Why do I always have to overthink everything?)
(They're making all these exceptions for her)
(It shouldn't be this hard)
(I can't fall asleep)
(Won't you stay?)
(Did it even happen?)
(I wish someone had told me)