CHC Beatlab - Poison Ivy Lyrics

I'm as sad as the flowers that are forced to be thrown away
Because of the rancid water holding a wholesome grip on its throat
Like yours was on mine
"You beast"
"You animal"
My mind screamed
Don't you dare let your poison ivy touch me again
I refuse to be thrown into another manifestation of yours
Your thoughts linger in the back of my mind even two years later because
I still feel choked by your rancid water
I still feel the poison ivy cascading up my body
And I still feel this cheap anger boiling the blood in my veins rotting my core
Forcing me to plunge further and further into the darkness until I can no longer see the light
So now I am living weekend to weekend
Coffee to coffee
Pill to pill
But I once remember a little fly
Crawling into my ear and sitting
"This is not a life" she said
"This is a hell of its own"

Living in an Epidemic
Of sexual violence
Within a world only known
To white men and wallets
Trying to silence
All of our women
Now you all know that
Ain't no way to be living,
Come on now speak up
I need excitement
Let's hear your indictments
Gotta stop sitting back
And get to some fighting
We all got different methods
I just stick to my writing
Yeah
Just to drop the truth
And to pay respect
Now I know we all know about
Trump and Brett
They turned the whole country
Into a movie set
The comedy and horror
As we approach the vote
The way this gonna flood
We gonna need a bigger boat
We gonna save up all these animals
The flowers we just won't
This makes me very sad
And puts a filter on my hope
Because of the rancid water holding
Grip on its throat, like

You are not silencing me
I own my body
I am not drowning my worth
I will keep fighting
You are not silencing me
I own my body
I am not drowning my worth
I will keep fighting

But lemme hear bout the boy down the street
With glasses, not very tall
Yeah it was Shane that you called him?
He did what? Forced you where?
No one better have any bright dreams for him
He belongs in a cage
Full of demonic rage
Should've thought but you decided to rape
She was only a girl
When you destroyed world
And all of her thoughts began to swirl
Was it her fault?
Could she cleanse it with salt?
This was not just a somatic assault

Them clouds gonna move out the way eventually
You don't understand the kinda storm
That's it's been for me
Sometimes I think God lined
This up for me intentionally
So I can be his son who shined
Through darkness
Despite the negativity
I don't know why I'm so strong
I don't know how I felt the pain
Continued in the rain for this long
But it don't even matter
Still alive 21 and I couldn't be gladder
Praise God

You are not silencing me
I own my body
I am not drowning my worth
I will keep fighting
You are not silencing me
I own my body
I am not drowning my worth
I will keep fighting