Chibiitaii - Secret War Lyrics

Yeah, I'm standing in the mirror, staring at a face I barely recognize
Feeling like a storm cloud in a clear sky, tears I can't justify
Wrapped in a shroud of silence, my heart beats a troubled rhyme
Every cut, a secret chapter, of pain, hidden line by line

Battling with my shadows, a war with no end in sight
Nightmares play in daylight, can't distinguish wrong from right
Locked in a cage of my own thoughts, throwing away the key
They say pain is just temporary, but it's a lifelong company for me

Yeah, I hate this feeling, like I'm drowning in my skin
Trying to scream for help, but where do I begin?
Sometimes I hate myself, more than you could know
But I'm learning to fight through, even when it doesn't show

Tired smiles, hidden trials, each step feels like a mile
Every laugh's a lie, camouflage that can't hold awhile
People say "it gets better", their words a distant echo
I'm walking through this storm, but the winds, they never let go

I'm my own antagonist, fighting against my pulse
Every scar, a story, every line, a convulse
Trying to heal, but I'm addicted to the breaking
It's a cycle, it's my struggle, it's the risk I keep on taking

Yeah, I hate this feeling, like I'm drowning in my skin
Trying to scream for help, but where do I begin?
Sometimes I hate myself, more than you could know
But I'm learning to fight through, even when it doesn't show

In the darkest nights, I find, a glimmer that's my guide
Maybe I can find my peace, find some light inside
Can I forgive myself, for what I've done to me?
Can I become my own friend, not my enemy?

I'm learning to breathe, to see past the storms I brew
Finding solace in the little things, and truths I never knew
Life's not about the scars, but the moments between
I'm finding hope in broken places, a new serene

This journey ain't over, it's a path I'm beginning to walk
Finding strength in my voice, whenever I talk
No more hiding in the shadows, I'm stepping into the light
This fight isn't just mine, it's ours to unite

Yeah, I hate this feeling, like I'm drowning in my skin
Trying to scream for help, but where do I begin?
Sometimes I hate myself, more than you could know
But I'm learning to fight through, even when it doesn't show

So here's to the battles, and the scars we mend
Here's to the darkest nights, we thought would never end
We're more than our battles, more than our pain
We are warriors inside, and we won't be slain