ChillPanic - Mental Illness (Sometimes I Hate Myself) Lyrics

I've sunken in this place again
It's automatic I guess
It's just a side effect of
My mental illness I'll get
F*cked up yet again
Let dysphoria come in
Am I fine well that depends if
You want me to pretend then
I'm better than I've ever been
I'm such a loner but f*ck
Who needs friends
When I've got them
I can hear them now
You're never gonna make it
Everybody knows you're fakin'
Don't you understand
I'm everything you wanted
Cause' I'm everything you hated now
I scream loud
Look at your reflection
Do you really think that you could ever
Be allowed
To have any connection
Don't you understand you're broken
From the inside out
I've sunken in my head again
I'm apathetic I guess
It's just a consequence of
My mental illness I'll get
F*cked up yet again
Let all of my demons in
Cause' they're the only ones who get it
When I'm weak and defenseless
Oh I'm better than I've ever been
I'm such a loner but f*ck
Who needs friends
When I've got them
I can hear them now
You're never gonna make it
Everybody knows you're fakin'
Don't you understand
I'm everything you wanted
Cause' I'm everything you hated now
I scream loud
Look at your reflection
Do you really think that you could ever
Be allowed
To have any connection
Don't you understand you're broken
From the inside out
Go look in the mirror
I dare you
Don't you turn away this is a breakthrough
I'm always inside you and always around
I'm inside of the silence when no ones around