Chris Jewson - See Through You Lyrics

I see through you
I see through you
I see through you
And now I dream of you
I see through you
I see through you
I see through you
And now I dream of you
It's fascinating how I saw the pretty pictures getting clearer
Said goodbye to ugly days, took a step outside the mirror
Gave myself a chance to be me, haven't done that in some time
Yet there's strings attached and things I've matched to what I feel inside
I want to have my independence and as much as I'mma tell myself I have it
Feel encapsulated, straining me and limits
On myself
I guess, I've had, my rests
Let's go, no more, get out, of bed
But it's not easy is it
Shit why I'm asking you, I'll tell you
I set alarms, go back to bed I scroll in stress I put myself through
I just wish those pretty pictures lasted
Watch 'em linger, time is passing
Give it up, give a f*ck
Never been a time I haven't
What's a life without some hardships?
Shit, I guess it makes you stronger
There's a difference when it's every day
Your nails ain't getting longer
Nervous ticks and self-destruction
Little things build over time
It's hard to live your life in ease when you don't even feel alive
I see through you
I see through you
I see through you
And now I dream of you
I see through you
I see through you
I see through you
And now I dream of you
Give me the back the time you took from me
Take back the lies, the crooked dreams
The books I read myself while staring out at nothing, please
But you don't get it, do you?
And I could ask you every day
But there's no sense in looking back
It's only in the future that you even have a say
Made decisions, thought were best for me
But you didn't like that shit now, did you?
Tried invading all my privacy
The texts I sent, calls I gave
Things I said, friends I made
The back and forths in right and wrong
The disbelief in my beliefs
Wanna scream out all my problems but I keep 'em so reserved
But I just know that I'm here stuck with you
A blessing and a curse
A give and tell of what I say and if I ever should've done it
But I say "it" like it's singular
It's every single subject
Not a single waking moment I don't have you on my shoulder
Tell me all the things I did wrong, and with you, there's never closure
Try my best to f*cking please you and I swear that's not a bluff
But you made it pretty clear that I'll just never be enough
For you
I see through you
I see through you
I see through you
And now I dream of you
I see through you
I see through you
I see through you
And now I dream of you
So be honest with me, what the f*ck did I do to deserve this?
I admit I have my issues
I'm a pretty decent person
You've been with me since before, man, I could even drive
What's the deal with that? You're on my ass because I missed a sign?
Minor error, okay, well let's just sit and talk about it
Okay that's enough, I get it
No I get it now, just stop it
Running every situation time and time again, like you do
You're like the flu
You come around and never give unless there's push against you
But I'm not giving to your plan
Man, I've had it, enough
You won't control me again
And I've put up with too much for too long in disgust
But you know all about that I'm sure
I guess the fights weren't enough
And all the words that you said
And all the pleads that I gave
I wanted only to please you and now I'm stuck in this cage
But at least now I'm aware and I know you can't control me
No more bullying from power, you took a toll on the old me
But I'm not running this time because I know that you're there
I'm gonna plant to the ground and blow a kiss in the air
Your reign is over, my friend
And I know that I'll be with you
But know that when you're away
Just know I'm not gonna miss you