Trauma Video (MV)

Let me go back to my past
Where I felt like I was last
When I felt like I was trapped
When I wear a f*cking mask
I was broken and so sad
All these emotions made me mad
That's when I started being bad
And my dad, beat my ass
I was bullied by my peers
And I've lost so many tears
And I thought over the years
Why I have so many fears
Its Because of all my hate
My f*cked up childhood I can't relate
I'm just trying to forget But it's too late
I would forever be In this state
Of mind
I would forever hate
Humankind
I feel like I lost
So much time
I wish I could just
Go rewind
But to move on Is to grow In today's age
I ask why Can't we be On the same page
But no matter what I say You always change the blame
To someone else Other than your own name
Damn
And it happens every time
I try to talk about my trauma
You push me aside
I try to talk about my trauma
You push me aside
I try to talk about my trauma You push me aside
And say that it's all in my head
And nothing ever happened At least I'm not dead
That's what they say
Please just let me run away
From all of my pain
That's in my head all again
All this trauma
I try to get it out of my chest
But I can't
I can't say anything
You know how hard it is
To try to say something
But someone always coming in
Butting in
Never let you get your point across
Hoping you forget
But you won't
Cause the trauma's already settled in
This is why I don't talk
In the first place
Every time I try
It's never a safe space
I try to open up
About my ADHD
But instead
You said there's no such thing
That there's only mental disorders
And I need to get my life in order
Did you know How I felt that day
I felt like
How I did as a kid
I just wanted to go away
Suicide
I don't want to say
These f*cking things
What I want to say
Is we live like kings
But the kingdom fell
When you say
You never caused me pain
And I vow
That you wouldn't
Get the chance
To do the same thing
This generational trauma
Is gonna end with me
It better not transfer to my siblings
Because if it does i might go crazy
I dont know