Numb to the Pain Video (MV)

I guess I wish I could understand
I'm a young man who is big and strong
But still just a man
I feel the things that other humans do
What did I mean to her
What do I mean to you
I guess I feel like I need someone to hold my hand
Why can't I bear this pain
It's something I can't stand
I'm lookin
Feelin like I'm kinda stupid pursuin
You see the pain I feel is not that I
Can't find someone but I feel like
It's not worth it
Love is a great thing
But the thing is for some
It's just a curse and
It's a great burden
It's hard to put in words
But I've been hurtin
And I've been learnin
To harden my heart
Make it cold so that I'm
Numb To The Pain
I guess what I'm tryna say
Is that I'd rather feel
Nothin than feel this rain
Tears streaming down my face
Why do I feel this way
Something has made me
A little crazy
I know I go to the crowd
Give 'em a smile
But I'm just faking
Oh Jesus save me
From this hell that we call earth
There's things I tend to place my worth
Where relationships end in hurt
I'm going berserk
And I hate it
Why do things have to be so darn complicated
You want 'em
When they don't want you
But when they do
Suddenly
You feel like you don't want them no more
So you try to let them down slowly
Then the other person's like where you going
Is the issue that I finally want you back
Or is it just the fact
That people want what they can't have
But like objects, you throw 'em away as if they're nothing but trash
And it makes me mad
And a little bit sad
How people nowadays
Don't give a crap
I realize that you were just doing what you wanna do
But did you even stop for a minute to Even consider how I felt
It's like you only care for yourself
And not me
And honestly
The agony
That you have brought me
The sleepless night I've had were from crying
And thinking that I am worth nothing
Can't you see
That I feel I'm dying
Cause the love I thought you gave was a lie to you
But not to me
And now it's something that I need
And feel that I have been craving
And a part of me hates you for the way that you have hurt me
You may not at all think that it's a big deal from what it seems
But from what it seems
I'm picking my broken heart up piece by piece
But it doesn't matter no more
Since I'm stronger now than I've ever been before
You were just a waste of time
A lesson in mind
To fricken get a grip
If you're broken over someone lemme give you a tip
Move on
Don't let yourself be broken by it
Show'em your strong
Work hard
Live long
Work smart
Doesn't matter how many times they tear you apart
Play your cards right
Don't fight
Just let it all go
The feeling of being alone
Is something that I've had to own
Understand I don't like it
It's an unenjoyable road
Livin in doubt
Hesitating to ask that person out
Cause what if they hurt me like the last one
Truth is they'll all hurt you
Cause we're long gone
Humans who hurt others cause of sin
So it's our fault
I guess this is why I'm hesitant
Cause the risks involved to me
Are honestly just not worth it
And what's the point of love
If I don't even believe that I deserve it