Can I Live Video (MV)

Frustrated, irritated
Sometimes I don't know myself, I'm a f*cking stranger
Living in danger everyday of going without meals
And got a full time gig, how the f*ck would you deal
Getting bills in the mail while your funds insufficient
Knees ashy, tryna keep faith in your religion
Life poking holes in your ambition
Motherf*ckers judge you, never been in your position
Sit alone in ya room, burning candles, starring at pistols
Can't sleep, thoughts to deep for you to swim through
Dry face, tears allergic to my skin
Rather take the pain than show I'm mortal to these homo-sapiens
Say a prayer, dear Lord, forgive me for my sins
Keep eyes on my enemies, protect me from my friends
My only trust is my pen
Cause I know I'll never lie with my words, Amen
Can I live

All a nigga wanna know is can I live
Yeah, dear Lord can I live
Dear Lord can I live

Determination, nothing can kill dream I'm tryna live in
I'm addicted, might need an intervention
All I want is be something, somebody
Other than a nigga coming straight outta Duval County
What's the odds that I'm playing with
I got a better chance to die than to stay legit
Tomorrow seems less likely for these younger kids
How I'm s'posed to have a child in this craziness
How I'm s'posed to stay faithful to just one chick
While I'm on the road worried bout who she f*cking with
As I sit I'm the bed texting with another bitch
That I'm catching feelings for, on some soap opera shit
I ain't near perfect, nor do I try to be
I'm tryna stay afloat on a boat that ain't built for sea
My head above water, but the rest of my body swimming with sharks
That'll kill for everything that I got
Dear God, can I live

Dear Lord can I live
Man please, can I live
Real nigga tryna live

I wrote these rhymes while my brother in a hospital bed
The other day they shot my lil whoady down, God bless the dead
I'm on some hating shit, hating this, hating that
Hate the fact, I can't spit shit but real raps
Them raps that you ain't playing back
Second guessing who really gone have my back
Third guessing, it's just me and me, in this land of backstabbers
Niggas kidnapping styles, ain't throw a dime my way
So copycatters must die nine times for stealing off my plate
I ain't got no shit to lose, I ain't got no shit to prove
Niggas wanna see me die, I ain't did nothin to you
All I did was master the blueprint, KRS and HOV
Now I'm coming for spots, making blueprints of my throne
Kick you out the game Melinie, Derwin can't catch you falling bitch
Niggas don't catch my drift, like Tebow throwing the ball at them
But fail to see I'm running shit to save the game
But y'all don't give a f*ck bout none of this shit that I say
Can I live

Can I live
Can I live
Everyday I'm prayin, Lord please save me I been drinking
Nigga faded, weed and pussy I'm sedated
Can I live
Can I live