Church of Starry Wisdom - Feels Like Suicide Lyrics

For the life of me I can't figure out why
I keep losing, I keep losing
And sometimes I try to be the best that I can be
Other times all is lost on me
I wish when I reached for you I could find you
And even when you lie to me I would know it was true

And I may be stupid but I love you, I love you
Even though it feels like suicide when you're by my side
Like suicide when you're by my side

Even my momma says it's time to let you go
But I'm built like a levy, have to break before I let it flow
All of my walls crashing down like Jericho
Thats how I feel, baby, before I let you go

And I may be stupid but I love you, I love you
Even though it feels like suicide when you're by my side
Like suicide when you're by my side

I wish I had something to look forward to
Something promised, something beautiful
But what does beautiful mean to you?

Who's gonna love you, baby, like I love you?