CHVSE - This a Message Lyrics

So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I, got some questions it's all in advance
Why is, life depressing then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man

Because I'm trapped inside my mind of who I am and who I choose to be
Now I just abuse the weed to hide from what I truly see
I looked inside my mirror hoping god would help me see myself
But only seen my demons screaming out that I should free myself
I'm feeling lost feeling lonely on this twisted road
I'll fake a smile so that my parents and my sister know
That I'm alright, I'm Okay, I been doing good
So don't worry I'll be fine like you knew I would
My mom will tell me that I'm great and that she's proud of me
My dad will brag to all his friends that he can count on me
The pressures here it's building up now its surrounding me
I'm scared to let them down cuz if I do will they look down on me
See thats a question that a broken soul would ask itself
Like why the f*ck am I alive man I should blast myself
I'm writing music to forget I can't distract myself
From every f*cking thought I think its time I try to ask for help

So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I, got some questions it's all in advance
Why is, life depressing then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man
So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I, got some questions it's all in advance
Why is, life depressing then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man

Shit this ain't normal I don't know what I should f*cking do
I paid my dues but still ain't figure out my f*cking truth
I feel alone but I got every single one of you
I think I take that shit for granted dog and I ain't wanting to
But shit happens, in such a quick fashion
The road twists so fast and then my whip crashes
Except the whip is not my car its all my sick passions
And the roads the world around me tryna get at them
God you a sick bastard
For putting me through the ropes
At 13 I seen my uncle with a tube in his throat
I watched my cousins lose a father slowly losing their hope
Then asked the preacher why and he said only you could've known
So tell me
Why'd you do it
Man I need you to say
To put my mind more at ease with all the shit you display
I know I'm not supposed to question you but damnit I prayed
And it seems like you don't care about a thing that I say

So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I, got some questions it's all in advance
Why is, life depressing then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man
So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I, got some questions it's all in advance
Why is, life depressing then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man
So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I, got some questions it's all in advance
Why is, life depressing then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man