Can't tell if I'm okay
I've been running it everything
I got used to making plays
Like this shit is all a game
I ain't f*ck with all those sides
I only eat what's main
So everything else in my life got
Rust up on their chains
This what I made, people all change
Yeah I do too, I'm not the same
Got a new stance, got a new team
Got a new dance, got a new dream
Don't tell me it's by chance when I get everything I need
I sacrificed it all just so part of me could breathe
Look at my ghosts, whoa
Gone like a roach, smoke
Got more than most, so
Pass me the dope, role
Blowing off on all I own, I got all my bros at home
I ain't seen them in so long, I'm too busy's all they know
Chasing my goals, paying the toll, I already sold my soul
It needs more, carnivore, if it ain't me it forgoes
God I sold everything
Ever since, I don't walk
I don't talk like I used to
I be bossing like it's voodoo
This is me up in the future
This is not no f*cking rumor
Play my cards right like it's UNO
Till I'm hopping out a two-door
With a turbo that go fast
Bitch I got this in a bag
Yeah I know that I will last
Look I let go of my past
Levitating with a dash
But my life, got a slash
Chxnge is up, Rob has crashed
Even lost some of his laugh
Living lowlife if they ask
Got a mask but no shooters in the back of a black Cadillac
Still got murder on my mind when it comes to the art
So the artists in the front bout to switch into the trunk
I got used to playing dumb
And I'm used to being numb
So as I'm holding up this gun
Another part of me gets stunned
Stunted in my growth
Most parts of me are gone
Leave a message at the tone
Man I feel so f*cking old
Like I need my f*cking throne for that cracking in my bones
Catch me looking through my phone at the things I used to know
Be it speaking or perceiving
Man I do well when I'm reading
When I talk they give me treatment like I scare them for some reason
I take a pause, in between my thoughts
I hope they know I don't do this much
I don't go out unless I need sex
Then kick her out and onto the next
Most my fam, we don't click, ever since, all of this
Kicking it when I visit them but I shut my mouth and just pretend
Like we won't fight if I talk a bit
Like everything good ever since I left
Like I ain't struggling to live normal
But back then I didn't want to live no more
So although I may have lost
Everything that they seem to floss
That's a line I had to cross
This just what success costs