Chxnge - Underdose Lyrics

Today was a blur
I ain't at my worst
See the pain didn't hurt
It's still there, but I'm good, but I'm good

I've been good
I've been lifting up my hood
I did so much shit for you
I left myself in the blue
So I had to pay the dues
Cut my circle like in two
I have only left a few
Had to weed out all the rest
About the time I left my ex

Today was a blur
I ain't at my worst
See the pain didn't hurt
It's still there, but I'm good, but I'm good

I've been doing just fine on my own
You've been leaving my mind
I don't know if I didn't love you on the low
Or if it's just me with my pill underdose

Dosing with no doctor, I've been dosing off, no potion
Tryna prosper without hoping
Anything saves me but me
So to the new me let's be toasting
They be asking why I'm stopping
I tell them I see slow motion
Motion sick like I'm at sea
I'ma be posted on the corner; heaving, breathing tryna stay up
Tell myself that it's all made up
Tryna use what I could scrape up
Two weeks now no anti-depressants
F*cking withdrawals, tryna repress them
Stutter my words like a foreign language
Cold sweats at night I'm tryna manage

Today was a blur
I ain't at my worst
See the pain didn't hurt
It's still there, but I'm good, but I'm good

I've been doing just fine on my own
You've been leaving my mind
I don't know if I didn't love you on the low
Or if it's just me with my pill underdose

I've been tryna throw
Everything I used to hold
I'm addicted to the growth
Blow my value leave me broke
I've been tryna throw
Everything I used to hold
I'm addicted to the growth
Blow my value leave me broke
And now I'm aiming for the stations
I'm tryna end up on my playlist
I'm tryna be my f*cking favorite
Tell my old self I have made it

Today was a blur
I ain't at my worst
See the pain didn't hurt
It's still there, but I'm good, but I'm good

I've been doing just fine on my own
You've been leaving my mind
I don't know if I didn't love you on the low
Or if it's just me with my pill underdose