The Citrus Trees - I Fall Apart Lyrics

Random thoughts always eb themselves into my skin
Cloaked when nighttime comes again
But I don't recall listenin'
To nonsense

I sense the tables may have turned
But I don't think I ever learned
The lesson that you never
Sought to teach me

The past is a museum
Artifacts like noseeums
Memorize the call to freedom
It's fantastic

And don't you think it's funny
That two legs can take you running
But your laces make you trip
I fall apart

Every time I see somebody die on the news
Every time I make a choice that I don't wanna choose
Every time I sense your presence is long overdue
I fall apart, I fall apart

Flip the page and turn your journal inside out
And pour the postcards on the floor
And read out loud until you shout
Your weakness

My weakness is in solitude
A blitz of thoughts to trip my step
But angels always see me through
To take it

Take my life whole by the horns and jump
On trampolines that lost their umph
The springs are gone, and spring won't come
For ages

So here I sit curled on my bed
A pen in hand, the ink is red
To recount all the ways
I fall apart

Every time I see somebody die on the news
Every time I make a choice that I don't wanna choose
Every time I sense your presence is long overdue
I fall apart, I fall apart

And the winds won't stop, the changes come on constantly
But at least I have this album to play on repeat
And I hold onto this script so I can play the lead
I play a part, but I fall apart

Can you not believe we'll be okay?
We'll be okay
Can I still perceive the light of day?
The light of day

So count your fingers in this park
The night of day, the light of dark
And find the things that make you real
That make you feel like you're a part

Of math that spans the universe
The cosmic waves, your shoes converse
And take you to your better days
The better way, as we rehearsed

Oh, oh

Can you not believe we'll be okay?
We'll be okay

I fall apart every time I see somebody die on the news
Every time I make a choice that I don't wanna choose
Every time I sense your presence is long overdue
I fall apart, I fall apart