CJ - lost&found! Lyrics

It was just me, myself going through all the pain near surroundings
All of my demons just posted inside there's times where I need to start shouting
Felt like a fish under water some what I felt like that I was drowning
Tryna get back up to my highest feel like I'm climbing right up a mountain
I was tired of being so down, just wanna go live my life and just be free
I can not f*ck with these bitches, these bitches be toxic, they tryna conceive me
Everyday there's something new feel like all this pain be stuck up on repeat
I was so lost, and that shit was so dark but now that I've found me
We used to be close, don't know what had happened you switched up on some fake shit
Feel like my heart had got abducted and locked it up right in a motherf*ckin basement
Put me right down to my lowest feels like I got left right onto the pavement
Thank god that my momma told me growing up that our loved ones ain't gone be the realist
It's good and it's bad, I'm the realist
Feel like they gone use me for riches
Hope all my real motherf*ckers relate to my words cause y'all gonna feel this
Sometimes hate that the fact that I'm loyal
I'm the prince of the pain I'm so royal
Stabbed me in the back more then three, four times should of known the fact that you disloyal (Let's go)
My life is a puzzle, put it together, it's sad that this shit is a challenge
Still telling my story, I'm just writing it out like this bitch a motherf*ckin passage
Still talkin my shit, still poppin my shit, y'all mad that I'm still a savage
Still a savage after everything that I been through y'all couldn't imagine, (cause)
It was just me, myself going through all the pain near surroundings
All of my demons just posted inside there's times where I need to start shouting
Felt like a fish under water some what I felt like that I was drowning
Tryna get back up to my highest feel like I'm climbing right up a mountain
I was tired of being so down, just wanna go live my life and just be free
I can not f*ck with these bitches, these bitches be toxic, they tryna conceive me
Everyday there's something new feel like all this pain be stuck up on repeat
I was so lost, and that shit was so dark but now that I've found me
Had some people tell me in my life that my dream was just gonna be some type of fantasy
Wasn't sure if it was a signal from god that some of my people giving up on me
Giving up on me, like why?
Try to my feelings right onto the side
Them words hit me back like a boomerang
Couldn't even go and swallow my pride
Was never the type to keep my feelings lowkey
Nah I ain't missin the old me
Not bringing you back to my life after all the lies and shit that you told me
Some nights I don't go to sleep
My heart is way to deep
Feel like the devil is up on my shoulder and it's tryna control me
All of this pain got me suffering
It hurts to show love to somebody probably not showing no more love again
I'm tryna get back to the best of me but I don't know when
Thank the lord for putting me back on a better path so amen
It was just me, myself going through all the pain near surroundings
All of my demons just posted inside there's times where I need to start shouting
Felt like a fish under water some what I felt like that I was drowning
Tryna get back up to my highest feel like I'm climbing right up a mountain
I was tired of being so down, just wanna go live my life and just be free
I can not f*ck with these bitches, these bitches be toxic, they tryna conceive me
Everyday there's something new feel like all this pain be stuck up on repeat
I was so lost, and that shit was so dark but now that I've found me