Clowncar - Biopic Lyrics

I slice the pavement in half with my hand
Hi five my grave and push my palms to the sand
Up out this hole
I keep it rollin
Bowling eights but I strike when I can
Spare me my life
I'm folding hands
Prayers up right to the man
Not religious but who cares
I'm holding tight
Like my life's in my hands
Amen
My life a movie
Biopics in advance
Not dead
Not yet
Giving a voice to myself while I can
Simple choices I just listen to the voice in my head
Lend me your ear so you can hear what I said
Sample choice make the difference
Writing my life till I'm dead
So you can listen to it after I can't
Listen waves and oceans huggin the land
Lungs still spittin while my ashes in sand
I fell asleep for so long
I thought the world froze over
Hoping to make my heart froze colder
But the charcoal in my stomach
Made me start growin sober
I wished I was dead at 16
On a 3 leaf clover
Still living
Hit my head
My brain bled
Brain and heartbeat slower
Off the meds
I fainted hard
That's my last time smokin
I lost my head, couldn't focus
Not dead yet but hit my nerves wrong
I would die on command, no controlling
No control when I broke my leg
That was the worst
Universe had me at my hardest test
Most depressed
I spent most of my 2010s in tears
I thank whoever the f*ck is up there that im still here
I been broke
I broke my leg and my head and my ear
Thankfully walking
Thankfully here
Although my broken bones
Ain't fully healed
I'm still so grateful I could shed a tear
Shouts out whoever's up there I'm still here