Back Then Video (MV)

You were my best friend
But you were way ahead
When it came to growing up
Isn't thirteen young
To touch like adults?
You called it having fun

Couldn't tell you no
Didn't want you to go
And lose all that we had
It only took six months
'Til you were bored of us
And left me feeling so damn lost

I wasted all my youth feeling sad
Black t-shirts and pop-punk bands
I was jaded and alone in my mind
While you got away with the perfect crime
There's a lot that I'd do differently
If I was who I wanted to be back then

You liked to cause me pain
What did you think you'd gain
From bringing down a friend
I stopped making art
My little heart grew dark
I was quiet and withdrawn

Just like a poisoned knife
You altered my whole life
And you got to carry on
You told the world lies
I had to pay the price
Sixteen goddamn years of rain

I wasted all my youth feeling sad
Black t-shirts and pop-punk bands
I was jaded and alone in my mind
While you got away with the perfect crime
There's a lot that I'd do differently
If I was who I wanted to be back then

Was I just an experiment you never got right?
A creature that you brought to life just to watch die?
A shadow blocking out your oversized spotlight?
A castle resting on your arbitrary fault lines?
Well, I would've died for your affection
Instead I just died inside pretending
That I was doing fine
That I didn't lose my mind
But I never asked for any of this
Now I can't get back my innocence

I wasted all my youth feeling sad
And I hope that karma gets you back
Cause I was jaded and alone in my mind
While you got a pedestal way up high
Oh I'd do it all so differently
If I was who I wanted to be back then
But I wasn't who I am back then