Crazy Rozy - Hurt (feat. Samimi) Lyrics

I hurt myself today
To see if i can feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing thats real

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
I know will never heal

Have you ever been strapped
Couldn't reach your strap
Couldn't reach the itch on my f*cken back
Cops with emotions detached

12 gauge shotty
And a f*cken millimetre to match
Fast forward just an hour
Now its all in the past

Daily dreams about it
Smash my head up on the door
Trying to break the glass
If the lord do decide to take me
I pray he make it fast
And if he don't then I grab my glock and I make it blast

My pain
Ive never seen it fade away
Travels with me everyday
Fight myself
Need myself a Nancy Grace
Get that bitch to mediate

Between me myself and I
Because I'm that boy you love to hate

Same bones I always break
Travel to the Pearly gates
God said I was a little late
Not to worry, Satan saved a place
No way I can escape
Feel like Jesus at the dinner
And I have an empty plate
And...

I hurt myself today
To see if i can feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing thats real

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
I know will never heal

F*ck technology
I'm channelling the God in me
Pardon me
If I'm not showing you no modesty
I'm trynna do it properly
You playin games monopoly
You probably ain't gripping my philosophy
That's odd to me

It's hand made simple
Moulded from clay
The pottery
Showing an anomaly
The animosity
Building up and honestly
I'm lost it seems
What's the cost to me
I Look to my astronomy
But still nobody follows me

Who on the beat
Who on the street
Who wanna change the way see
I make this shit
To make you live your f*ckin dreams
Keep you woke while the City sleeps

People Choke on their silly greed
Ya The city weeps
But I'm just trynna eat

I'm Trynna breath
And I can't see
On my last breath
I lift the mask and dream
I look left
Stare in-to
The Mutha f*cking the face of death
The reaper there again
He trynna Push me to edge

I hurt myself today
To see if i can feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing thats real

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
I know will never heal

Wake up in the morning and I ask myself
Is life worth living, should I blast myself

I feel the evil brewing
And I try to mask myself

My mind is slowly fading
And I can not ask for help

If I do they throw me in a f*cken padded cell
Tomb stone reads ninety seven
Nine, seven, twenty twelve

Mark the date
Rib cage marks the pain that I felt

Put and ivy in my veins
Tight rope with a belt

My head is starting to swell

Im bi polar as hell
PTSD as well
Popping pills from the shelf

So many idols that fell
Purple Rain and Cornell

Vitals slowing I'm pale
Lonely, Frozen, and frail
Boney, broken and male

Put the glock my hair
Looking back in the mirror
Cock it back and prepare

I shout the lords name
I don't think he was there
And I

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing thats real

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
I know Ill never heal