Curly - You're an Enigma, Cooper Lyrics

Well I messed up again
Tried to analyze as an means to an end
All I came up with was more questions
That you didn't wanna talk about it

Not to sound to selfish
But I knew I was right the whole time
I saw this all played
The questions masked explanations
From the inner depths of my mind

Tell me, what's it like to see things at face value?
To not question all the loop holes?
To turn off the "what if" switch in your cerebral?

And is this for the better?
It's better than you keep your mouth shut
'Cause I'm not caving in this time
Well I'm happy you're quiet, and I'm sad you're the same
Is this apathy or just a game?
Is this apathy or just a game?

Well I f*cked up again
Overthought everything over and over for days
Sometimes my skeptimism
Shoots my own optimism in this knees

Why'd you go back to him?
Why'd you deny the rumors to come clean?
Why did I deny
The rumors when deep down I saw it coming?

And I see the worst in everyone except for you
You see the best in everyone except for me

I don't think with that mindset
F*ck the numbers that you play like it's a game
And you mean something to me, and I expressed it
Through those late nights in cars
When we'd stare at the stars
Funny how you say I'm the one who overthinks
You keep wasting all your time
While I'm going to try and figure out
What's left inside my mind

Is this for the better?
It's better that we keep our mouths shut
'Cause no one's caving in this time

Well you say he's the only man that you loved
But you also said you loved me
So obviously you're lying to someone
Which one is it?
I don't really care anymore
If you wanna leave, there's the door

I have to be strong for my friends
So I'll pretend that I'm fine
While I secretly heal my mind