Curly Q - Cherry Earrings Lyrics

I have Sprite in my mouth. I gargled
If it's not those cherry earrings, then it's my songs you're singing
It's a damn shame that I didn't bring you to my shows
And I know nobody knows it, but we both know that you're my poet
And I swear to God that everyone will know now
You tell me you love me and all I can say is
I've been feeling guilty since the age of 18
Can't tell what I'm feeling because my numbness has hit the ceiling
And I'm so sorry for not being there for you
God knows that I wanted to
If it's not that strawberry dress, then it's me cleaning up my mess
That I've been cleaning for the last three months
And everyone's been asking where you are and how you've been
And I lie to them because I just don't know where to begin
I always make things worse. You're a blessing and a curse
Can I get some help? I'm trying to fix myself, And now my friends are intervening
You say you want my truth, Well, here it is
I've been feeling guilty since the age of 18
Can't tell what I'm feeling because my numbness has hit the ceiling
And I'm so sorry for not being there for you
God knows that I wanted to
And we've been staying up so much longer than the moon
And when you're sad, you can count on me to serenade you
And talking in these circles is our favorite thing to do
Because lately, everything I say, you often misconstrue
I know I'm being mean, but I promise you I care
I just wanna feel seen, but you left me emotionally bare
I've been feeling guilty since the age of 18
Can't tell what I'm feeling because my numbness has hit the ceiling
And I'm so sorry for not being there for you
God knows that I wanted to
And we've been staying up so much longer than the moon
And when you're sad, you count on me to serenade you
And talking in these circles is our favorite thing to do
Because lately, everything I say, you often misconstrue
My words, my mind
I'm wasting our time