D. Paul - IF YOU GET LOST Lyrics

I'm thinking about life and how it fluctuates
My elders say be grateful for another day
But I lay in bed at night and I'm up awake
Wondering if I really wanna make it to 28?
Groundhog Day, I feel like Bill Murray
When I saw that as a kid, I was in a hurry to grow up
Now as a grown-up it's overrated
My dad said my greatest weakness is I'm so impatient
And it irritates me, I just wanted it now
So he grounded me, cause my head was stuck in the clouds
Thinking, wow, is that all that my life is about?
Working 'til I die
Not allowed to be proud?
How can I ever find joy?
Can I ever find it outside of a joint?
I think of how much it would disappoint
Me as a little boy
If he saw me at this point
I'm looking for my reason
I've been trying to find my go, ay
Running from these demons
They wanna go toe-to-toe, ay
They can drive me crazy
But they cannot take control
Yeah, I know, yeah, I swear on my soul, I won't let go, ay
Feel a lot of pain, but I never let it show, ay
Thunder and the rain, making angels out of snow, ay
Getting hella high, cause the lows are really low
Yeah, I know that I really need to learn to let it go
I showed up to the party drunk
No one noticed me drinking out the trunk
And it's summer, but I keep the Bacardi tucked deep in my coat
And here I go, knowing a sip is a slippery slope
I'm trying to stay sane
But how the f*ck do you maintain willpower
When the challenge is built in your brain?
I'm trying to free my mind, so I'll take a ride
North on I-five, probably texting while I drive
And sometimes I feel like I'm dreaming
It's like there's glass in front of what in the f*ck I'm seeing
And even worse, when I talk, it's like I disconnect
It's like I just go deaf and it comes off as disrespect
I let so many people down with this music shit
I feel so useless, man, I used to jump through hoops for it
But Mr. Goodbar said that this shit is do or die
So if you don't do it, it means you're choosing suicide
And I don't know what's there
Left for me to say
Tear down all the walls
But you're still inside a cage
You can run away
And do that if you dare
No matter where you go
You will always be right there
Right there, you'll always be right there
Right there, you'll always be right there
Right there, I'll always be right there
Right there, I'll always be right there