¡damndilly! - Finding Myself Lyrics

I was insane for thinking that you would care about my problems
I been sipping out the bottle I'm barely above the bottom
I been
I been thinking how I almost lost my brother
I'm just glad that I got him
I still got too many problems
I been
I been slipping in the rain
I been tryna get away
I been finding myself in the pain
I been running in my brain
I been spinning all day
I been tryna find myself in the pain
Look myself in the face
Bang my head on the mirror till it breaks
Life is a selfish game
Bring myself pain for the selfish gain
All of my songs sound the same
Faulty ass brain makes it all mundane
I'm fine by myself okay
Don't pick up the phone when the cellphone rings
Cause I don't wanna talk
Anxiety, sobriety, I'm fighting with it all
Odds stacked against and my back against the wall
I don't get my hopes up cause I don't wanna fall
Remember when I thought that you was riding all along
But then you went away
Now you're back cause I'm on
I just wanna run up all these racks for my dogs
And turn away the fake cause I got it on my own
I was insane for thinking that you would care about my problems
I been sipping out the bottle I'm barely above the bottom
I been
I been thinking how I almost lost my brother
I'm just glad that I got him
I still got too many problems
I been
I been slipping in the rain
I been tryna get away
I been finding myself in the pain
I been running in my brain
I been spinning all day
I been tryna find myself in the pain
Tryna find myself in the pain but it don't work
I don't need your pity I need closure
Bitch I'm not a scholar I'm a stoner
Puffing till my throat burn
Gas to the brain till it don't hurt
Anymore
I don't want your apologies
I want you out the door
I been gone forever don't know what you're fighting for
Can't tell if it's my fault that you always wanted more
And all I ever wanted was for us to be great
But you tried to make me change
I was being me
You were placing all the blame
So I had a choice to make
Do I leave
Do I stay
So hard to say
So glad I chose the later cause I'm seeing better days
I been having fun
I been chilling with my gang
She was like a weight so I left her in the rain
I was insane for thinking that you would care about my problems
I been sipping out the bottle I'm barely above the bottom
I been
I been thinking how I almost lost my brother
I'm just glad that I got him
I still got too many problems
I been
I been slipping in the rain
I been tryna get away
I been finding myself in the pain
I been running in my brain
I been spinning all day
I been tryna find myself in the pain