18 years old
Went to school to make a wave
Hard to stay alive
And the city made you a grave
Hard to be myself
When everyones wants you to change
I just shoot my shots
No need for a gun range
Took myself to school
Got scholarships yea that cool
Black kid with a vision
Professors can see it too
Smoking til im numb
This indica gets me through
But if u was in my position
Tell me what you would do
2 weeks before class
New roomie dies
School starts
Friend tried her luck at suicide
Barely making friends
But thats the last thing on my mind
First month catch a charge
Im on the verge of suicide
Lost my sanity
(From what)
My f*cking ex
Ive been so depressed
Its almost natural to feel this way
Running track to make myself feel some type of way
Junior year of track
Another charge gets sent my way
I told my people
Pray for me
Pray for me
I made a way for me
I want more change for me
This is crazy
The devil really came for me
Tell that bitch that i aint goin nigga
RUN BACK RUN BACK
BACK TO EUPHORIA
RUN BACK RUN BACK
BACK TO EUPHORIA
And through all of that
Still manage to stay alive
Dead inside
But i use my pain to make some shine
This is only a gimpse of things thats on my mind
If you want what you want
Stay focused
And just try
Look at what i do
Made ventures in the city
Known for music
And every artist is f*ckin with me
Im the x of nap
Ill push til i die
I could die now happy knowing
At least i tried