Dani Jean-Baptiste - Doubting Thomas Lyrics

A stranger said this to me
"You've got good energy"
But I just caught "goodbye"

Am I'm a f*ck-up for
Freaking out on purpose?
Don't like to be surprised

Quit lying to me
When you're not sincerely
In love you just wanna cheer me up

I spread my self thin
Like melted margarine
I sleep on the wrong side of the bread

Something's been nagging at the
Back of my brain and now it
Hurts to hold my head high

I'm wasting my time
When I say I'm not fine
It's a lie I'm good with living without

I spend this life living
Much like Doubting Thomas
Clutching at my eyes

No I'm not so forgiving
As those like you or
The holes in Jesus Christ

I'll make a scene
Trying to beat some sense
Into my head that I can't deny

Why can't I see
What's happening
Until it breaks me awake in the middle of the night

Put your hand on my side
Put your hand on my side
Put your hand on my side
At least I'm trying