Dani Luminous - Depression Lyrics

You don't know what I know or maybe you do know
I just wanna be saying something wait let me remember
I got this slight problem of having a mind loss
Don't you worry I'm so close to remembering - uh, huh
Meanwhile till my function's restoring
I'll just talk about how boring these f*cking days are
Everything's so hateful and less outpouring
I keep rumbling and go ring on my f*cking door's bell
Thinking that I'm not part of the world or am I shooting for conjuring
Then the claps aloud, I hear sounds sweating my ass - ow
I make a fist wanting to punch anyone back - pow
Then I eat a pill and go to sleep in my sleep
But I am trapped even my demons know that I am astound

My mind is somewhere else and my heart is somewhere else
And my body's somewhere else and my soul is somewhere else
I just wanna be somewhere else
I can't be nowhere else
It looks like I'm in hell
I don't know if this is my depression

I just started to make songs 'cause maybe I wanted to but I listen to rap now and I don't want to
But then my life shows me problems and I'm on two different decisions
Yes or no I keep getting confused
I'm thinking on the loose I'm always thinking my body's fused
My neurons are always active always ready to queue
Wanting to be on the brink, make me a pessimist - woo
Like this is what I love but what I love is being a good dude
Do a good deed for all the people being a living reason
I know I won't be able to 'cause they are like these seasons
One time they'll love you the next time they'll back bite like a bellend
And then you don't know what to do except you being decent
We are the ones who wouldn't mind to give another chance
But chances have their limits so you can't make mistakes with plans
And then come up with a thought that you'll be forgiven - oh man
And especially when I know that you're not even a fan
I got my ladder to climb plus my own problems and then you might come with yours as if I am responsible
But that's the shitty part I may get down for a solution
'Cause I feel I'm the one though my lyrics are full of desolation

My mind is somewhere else and my heart is somewhere else
And my body's somewhere else and my soul is somewhere else
I just wanna be somewhere else
I can't be nowhere else
It looks like I'm in hell
I don't know if this is my depression

Give me a drink let me continue to shrink
It might be better at least better than to think
And ruin my mind and then commit a crime
Just hang myself and wait till I die
There'll be no cure no pain no tear I'll be outta here
No more f*cking tensions or bitch to love and live with the fear of losing anyone
A friend, a mentor or even a peer
Or the family I loved that turned to hit me back like a spear
It's unadmirable the dia's tilt my heart is on it
If it spins like a wheel I'll lose the zeal I'll call it a quit
But there's somebody for me who'll always be my reason to live
'Cause even if the world is over she'll be there with a grit
Ready to save me that rare creature on this earth
And it's a fair thing I call her mom 'cause I know of its worth
I've always been special to her from the day of my birth
She's always been the one to change my mind and I do not feel that

My mind is somewhere else and my heart is somewhere else
And my body's somewhere else and my soul is somewhere else
I just wanna be somewhere else
I can't be nowhere else
It looks like I'm in hell
I don't know if this is my depression