apologies. Video (MV)

I feel the need to apologize
For what you have been burdened with
I know that I'm not easy to love
Hurt at the hands of many others
And it's not your cross to bear
I'm putting my pieces back together
Grateful that you're always there

I'm sorry that I'm not at my best
That I may be too sensitive at times
Always anxious that I've messed up
Waiting for the other shoe to drop
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that I might flinch from your touch
That my insecurities get the best of me
Always worried that I'm not enough
Waiting for you to wake up
And realize I'm not the one you want

None of this has anything to do with you
But everything to do with me
I know it's too much to ask,
But please be patient with me
Loving me is a sacrifice
That you don't have to make
I hope that you'll find loving me wasn't a mistake

I've never known what it's like to be spoken to gently
I've never known what it's like to be treated with respect
It may seem a little odd to you that I cannot stop apologizing
Old habits die hard and they will or I'll die trying

I'm sorry that I'm not at my best
That I may be too sensitive at times
Always anxious that I've messed up
Waiting for the other shoe to drop
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that I might flinch from your touch
That my insecurities get the best of me
Always worried that I'm not enough
Waiting for you to wake up
And realize I'm not the one you want

What you have given me is so much more than I deserve
More in so much less time than I spent my life before
Thank you for being you, for loving me, for your heart of solid gold
I'm sorry that I'm so much sometimes, I know it must get old

I'm sorry
I'm sorry that I'm not yet who I want to be
I hope when I find her, you'll still want to love me