Physically and mentally drained
So distant from myself
I always feel like I'm missing out on something
I'm tired and have no energy
I just wanna live and be free
Not striving for happiness but for feeling alive
And maybe being content with myself again
How long will it take?
Where are the people I wanna connect to?
Probably on the other side of the world
Or am I just too blind?
I wanna look inside to the source of my self
But everytime I try I get distracted
Distracted by the voices
The voices in my head
Distracted by illusions
Illusions of this time
I can't help longing for
I can't help longing for better times
What is this feeling I am searching for
A warmth
A sound
A place
A scent
I see it right before my eyes but it's blurry
So near and still untouchable
I will continue to try
Even though it's hard
A silent waiting for the turning point
I hope it won't be too long
It really is that phone
It really is that phone