Breathless (feat. J Monas) Video (MV)

Subconscious knocking at the door
Asking for some more
Just like Jehovah's witness
Every Christmas on a snowy porch
Gradually mentality slips through my grips
Of course
And it instills the feeling so surreal of
Pure remorse
Broken hearted from
The circle of people who hurting me
Knowing expression of love for me
Is certain hyperbole
I just keep putting word to beat
Ill make this one turtle speed
Want you to hear me clearly
If it's the last time ya heard from me
Asking why is this happening
Imagination pacing back and forth
Intervening demons
I am seeming now to have galore
To be better at hiding anxiety is
All I'm asking for
Open up my cupboard to find a stash
And a torch
Anti-depression medicine
A poisonous antidote
Feeling better than ever been
Though there's no hope I can elope
I keep on waiting patiently
I know that it's worth it
To have a heart with no vacancy
Tell myself I deserve it

My oath is breaking
My bones are aching
Waiting to be rested
Breathless, breathless

Chuck Taylor's and haters
Until a couple hours later
Thinking I might meet my maker
Maybe heaven is catered
With all of my favorites
Taste the flavor and savor it
While I'm hoping that they forget
All my past where the anger is
I was always the maddest
Livin my life cinematic
Until the point I had had it
With getting smacked and called faggot
Riddle the Ritalin addict
Wrap his head up in plastic
Until he f*ckin suffocates
If he don't, get him gatted
Ask me why I'm so serious
Oh my god are you hearing this
The delirious lyricist
Is now growing imperious
Taking his fate in his hands
And now we are fearing it's
Getting closer to the end
For he said that he's nearing his
Grip this get by my head
And hold that thought while I'm depressed
Lead To be caught
By bullet remedies as meds
I've confessed to digest
Ces and felt blessed
Seeking divine intervention
And no less than success unless

My oath is breaking
My bones are aching
Waiting to be rested
Breathless, breathless

I f*ckin hate myself
I swear I'm not who I wanna be
Had been swept off my feet
And now I rot as in stumbling
With this self loathing
This hip hop and discovery
Mind and soul of something deep
And smoke a lot of the f*ckin cheef
Went to carry your weight
Wait spot me I'm crumbling
Wrote this out of emotion
Cause everybody's a cunt to me
I'm tired of these games
Swear that they are not fun to me
And I'm not from KC
But Missouri often loves company

And so today I demonstrate
How to make a brain obliterate
For my heart was filled
With bitter hate
Eats at me like a dinner plate
Cremate me
I'll disintegrate
Wished, but couldn't
Get a break
Take my f*ckin soul away
For I wish it will dissipate!

My oath is breaking
My bones are aching
Waiting to be rested
Breathless, breathless

My oath is breaking
My bones are aching
Waiting to be rested
Breathless, breathless