Up (A Reason to Die) Video (MV)

I gotta keep my hopes up
Chin and nose up
Wish you chose to show up
N watch me glow up
Sip until I throw up
Until I go up
I like to think that they'd be proud
If they watched me grow up

So cinematic
To make it happen
Coming up from nothing
But these cigarette ashes
All to end up
On somebody's blacklist
Find myself searching
For meaning, a purpose
Don't wanna be worthless
I'm afraid and I'm nervous
Everything up to this point
Has put me in a circuit
Ending up in the same place
And barely scratched the surface
Bottle after bottle
Thought my heart had won the lotto
It is infact growin hollow
Thats the bitter pill to swallow
Sippin liquor like moscato
Heart stoppin like staccato
And when thats all that i know
I take more shots than rifles
Ive broke a few bones
But i have yet to fall this hard
Love is bleeding, heart ain't beatin
Man I think i need a kickstart
The words hurt the worst
And how she submerged in thirst
Man im prayin like a church that
This is somethin i can discard
I don't know how go without you
Never thought it would be this way
For us i had a vision
Though its clear that we ain't see the same
Every night we would fight
But at least it would complete the day
And im gettin sick and tired of
Hearin it'll be okay
Reciting lyrics woefully
Maybe just broken poetry
I guess im trippin out
As my words fall over hopelessly
I'll pour my heart into this song
Knowing you'll never notice me
Then I'll lay and pray i don't awake
When i go to sleep

I gotta keep my hopes up
Chin and nose up
Wish you chose to show up
N watch me glow up
Sip until I throw up
Until I go up
I like to think that they'd be proud
If they watched me grow up

I'm just a poor boy
Bohemian Rhapsody
Been wearing this cross
To say I'm sorry for the blasphemy
Not praying, too focused
On these accolades and fallacies
And whatever I can do
To multiply my salary
I keep having a feelin
That I'm fixin to plummet
And everything I create
Gets imminent to destruction
Walking all around
With this aching pit in my stomach
But I gotta be a man
Stand as a victim to nothin

I gotta keep my hopes up
Chin and nose up
Wish you chose to show up
N watch me glow up
Sip until I throw up
Until I go up
I like to think that they'd be proud
If they watched me grow up