Darien Fields - Different (feat. John F. Hennessy) Lyrics

I think it would be more taxing on me
To not be honest
And to not be like
"Yo there's someone gorgeous in my bed tonight
But I'm petrified I'll die alone"
That is a deep fear of mine
Yeah
I'm getting faded again
Another happy birthday text
It was belated again
Another hero passed away intoxicated again
Seems I can only count on tragedy
And like 8 of my friends
I wanted to make amends
But you started avoiding me
Ignoring me
The silent treatment
Like you was annoyed at me
Playing with my heart
I told you "That sh*t ain't a toy to me"
But I truly hope that you enjoy your dream
All my life has been unstable
Every year I'm somewhere new
People that I love start drifting
Why should you be any different
I can't recall the last time that we talked for real
I think about you every time that I walk for real
And when I finally had the inner peace
To piece together something new
The door we built together was locked, Pharrell
Like The Neptunes, well
I hope you get well soon
Your spirit kinda sickly
Hope you get help soon
I hope I get well too
Cause my vision kinda blurry
Don't know where I'm going next
But I ain't in a hurry
All my life has been unstable
Every year I'm somewhere new
People that I love start drifting
Why should you be any different