Haunted Video (MV)

Often I lay in my bed and I think about moments that I took for granted
Think about friendships and love that I cherished and now leave me all empty handed
About how I bottle my feelings 'cause not many people I know understand it
About how I'm broken and so isolated from everyone else, yeah I'm stranded

But I don't panic, that feeling left me like exes that I don't need coming right back
Now I just open my pad and I write these emotions in lyrics to spit on a track
It's therapeutic to let out my feelings in music, 'cause bottles get full and they crack
And I got bottles and glasses and cups in my cabinet, flooding the shelves and they stack

Tell me to talk about life, that's how I'm gonna end up feeling better about it
Tell me don't pick up a knife, cutting my heart out my chest 'cause I'm better without it
And tell me I can't end my life, that I have a gift and I need to show off all my talent
And tell me don't ever think twice, but I'm overthinking and I'm feeling plenty of doubt and

I'm feeling so low, wonder why life was so colorful then and now it's turning gray
Wonder why memories stick in your head when you desperately, desperately want them to fade
Wonder why people can enter your life and can spark all this love and then take it away
Wonder why everything I try to do always blows up and fails in my face

I'm feeling haunted
Feel like my demons got boxed in
No matter where I go they're watching
I really wanna go but not yet

If life forms breath, and breath forms words
Then I'm dying slow, my speech is slurred
And I'm feeling down, do not disturb
Let me, lay alone, where thoughts are heard

And I'm in the dark, my heart is cold
It's a rainy night, a later road
Let me fall apart, and lose my soul
Let me fall apart and lose my soul

Bury it deep, take all our feelings to pasture and put 'em to sleep
Or maybe it's me, but is it strong not to cry or is holding these feelings in weak?
Know I don't often discuss what I'm thinking but that's 'cause it feels inconvenient to speak
So I save my weakness or strength for the dark of my room where I'm lonely and there I can weep

Mountain is steep, I'm on the climb and I'm headed up higher and higher
Pray for the wicked and pray for the sinners and pray for the demons and devils and fire
Pray for the darkness inside of my mind and be lifted and make myself brighter and brighter
Wake up imbalanced, I'm slipping and falling and can't seem to keep both my feet on the wire

I'm feeling haunted
Feel like my demons got boxed in
No matter where I go they're watching
I really wanna go but not yet