Lately it's just been a lot on my mind
I've been searching for myself, scared of what I might find
Feel like I'm living in the same chapter, stuck in rewind
Could never see what came after, now I'm going in blind
I'm no stranger to the darker side of life and I know it
Getting darker, drifting farther with the way things are going
Everywhere I try to turn it's like the rain won't stop pouring
I try to ignore it and say that my own health ain't important
But every step I take ahead ends up taking me back
Every single light that's shining slowly dims into black
Under pressure, battle tested, I know how to react
But it ain't easy fighting battles where the only attacks
Are coming from everyone else, not a bullet from my side
Maybe I won't make it but I promise that I tried
Promised that nobody'd ever see it when I cry
Call it what you want but I'm still faithful to my pride
It's hard to be open, it's hard to be me
It's hard to be happy, yeah, it's hard to be free
It's hard to be strong out here, it's hard to believe
It's hard to be a hero, it's hard to be
Hear they calling me to action, I'm not sure if I'm ready
On the ship and I'm the captain, barely keeping it steady
Every wave is like a hurricane, numb to it novocaine
Going over life and there are things I'm regretting
When I look back to every moment I showed weakness
And let the tears come rolling down my face got rivers streaking
And smile oh so bright to light my life up at it's bleakest
Was searching for a sign but I discovered I don't need it, yeah
To the next fight, to the next round, to the next wall I'm climbing
In the starlight, feeling alright, in the dark night I'm shining
Hero, feeling fear though, need a savior, I'm trying
If I said that I was not scared then I guess I was lying
Living in my darkest hour, these are troubled times
Facing fear despite the fear that's welled up in my eyes
If I'm really at the brink and this is do or die
Then I'm walking through the fire, and I testify
It's hard to be open, it's hard to be me
It's hard to be happy, yeah, it's hard to be free
It's hard to be strong out here, it's hard to believe
It's hard to be a hero, it's hard to be
I'll be a hero, I'll be your hero
Don't matter if it's all on me, I'm here if you call on me
And I'll be your hero, if you need a hero
Don't matter if you call on me, pick you up if you fall on me
It's hard to be open, it's hard to be me
It's hard to be happy, yeah, it's hard to be free
It's hard to be strong out here, it's hard to believe
It's hard to be a hero, it's hard to be