I'm done singing Hakuna Matata
I'm digging up my past
I'm digging up graves
Dry bones
Like fossils
I could never connect
I'm just trying to connect
Like cities on a map
I'm trying to connect the dots
I'm resisting my genetic disposition
For violence and rape
Anger and lust
My family is so f*cked up!!
But I love you
I love you all
I like you
For we are all messed up
None of us are saints
That's not how the artist paints
But you are beautiful
And I'm not me
Without you
But I need to see your scars
I need to smell your dirty laundry
I want to dance with the skeletons in your closet
I want to read an honest history book
I can endure the pain
I hope you can too
There is so many black marks on my name
That I'm tempted to start a new
But I'm not in the business of erasing
In order to restore
You must walk into the ruins
Sit in the dust
Pour ashes on your face
The past we must embrace
So we can walk into a better future
We can no longer redact the past
And I'm not asking for you to reenact it either
Just sit with me and drink this tea
Or coffee if you please
I'm on a journey that feels so alone
Family hold my hand
Let's sing a new song