David Larbi - Doubts Lyrics

I put my best foot forward and leave first things last
If you got a bad word for me leave it in the past, man
The play's been cast
You didn't get the part
I battle real villains
You're the joker on the cards
Yeah I got em in the city
Where some legends breathed their last
I'm coming up in places
Where some legends got their start
So don't blame me if your girlfriend's kissed my pictures in the past
Can't blame the girl for knowing when she sees some modern art
I put my best foot forward and leave first things last
If you got a bad word for me leave it in the past, man
The play's been cast
You didn't get the part
I got the top billing
You can take the undercard
Yeah I got em in the city
Where some legends breathed their last
I'm coming up in places
Where some legends got their start
So don't blame me if my focus different
Only live and breathe the mission
Chances move in cycles
And I know my time is coming fast
And all the thoughts that try and stop me
I just keep these out
Cause I ain't tryna feed these doubts
All the thoughts that try and stop me
I just keep these out
Cause I ain't tryna
Lying on my back looking through the window pane
There's a star that likes to visit every time it doesn't rain
I can see it when I close my eyes
Sometimes I try
Imagine what it's doing
When the day takes over night
When I met her first she asked my what I do with my time
I told her I have visions and I bring them to life
And she was hooked, I knew she'd love me for my rhythm and my rhymes
But the songs don't last forever and it put me in decline
Put me in a deep decline man I floundered
Took the colour out of life like just before I found her
Almost lost my vision and my voice for a minute
Had to check myself because I know there's falling and there's tripping
And tripping's temporary, man I know that more than any
And the tides they ebb and flow onto the beaches still without her
But I made my life about her
Cause birds of a feather can't help but flock together
And she flew away and now I do my best to keep those feelings out
Cause I ain't tryna feed these doubts
All the thoughts that try and stop me I just keep these out
I ain't tryna feed these doubts, man
They keep me down
Been floating down the stream
And if we sleep we drown
So can't beat me now
And the late nights are my great nights
I played nice
They played me for the fool
And I won't be played twice
I play through interference on the current state of play
But it's deeper than the game I'm in
I see it every day
I'm out here tryna to speak on it
And don't know what to say
Cause I'm only one voice
That's what all my voices say
Know money is what talks and I'm silent as hell
I can take it but too many people silenced as well
And I'm screaming but I'm throwing wishes down in a well
And the ones who do the granting
Spend my coins somewhere else
What do I say to em?
Tell em I'll pray for em?
But the people still aren't eating
And thing I can't believe is that
I'm just one person
But we're all one person
So if your soul's hurting
Then I'm hurting as well
And you can tell
Cause I've been on the road
Been living out in Paris
Too much time alone
Over thinking did the damage
Me against the world
Such a weighty proposition
And I'm feeling so exposed
Being out in this position
Deeply loved and lonely
Torn apart but still together
The solitude of summer's gonna live in me forever
But I want the things I want
So badly I can't sleep
I need the things I want
So badly I can't breathe
I wanna be a good man
I just wanna be good, man
Bring glory to my mother's house
In every word I speak
There's power in a name
That's why I use my real one
My will won't ever break
Sun or rain
Never change
And why all of my worries I just keep these out
Cause I ain't tryna feed these doubts
Every thought that tries to stop me
I just keep these out
Cause I ain't tryna feed these doubts