David's Telescope - Now That You're Gone Lyrics

I'm not ready to forgive
Not for the things you did
Not for the words you said
But I try to understand it now
You were just a victim of your time
Trapped in a role, you walked the line
Couldn't see another way
And now I try to understand
Sometimes my mind drifts back to then
Scared, hiding under my bed
As the fights kept growing louder
When mom begged you to stop
But you just slammed the door
I'm trying to let go of the past
Now that you're gone
Your strength is fading fast
Illness claims you day by day
Fear crawls up your spine at last
As Death draws nearer, here to stay
Your weak voice now a whisper
Begging to be forgiven
You don't want to leave with guilt
But can I forget the hell you've driven?
Sometimes my mind drifts back to then
Scared, hiding under my bed
As the fights kept growing louder
When mom begged you to stop
But you just slammed the door
I'm trying to let go of the past
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
When I screamed at you to stop
You just walked out the door
I wished you were dead
I wished you weren't my father anymore
Now that you're gone
I can't forget the years of pain
But I don't want to see you fade in shame
In your eyes, regret remains
But am I ready to release you.. from the blame?
Sometimes my mind drifts back to then
Scared, hiding under my bed
As my hate for you grew stronger
When mom begged you to stop
But you just slammed the door
I'm trying to let go of the past
Now that you're gone
When I screamed at you to stop
You just walked out the door
I wished you were dead
I wished you weren't my father anymore
I wished you were dead
I wished you were dead
You were my father after all
I wished you were dead
I wished you were dead
And now you're forever gone..