Davon Lovett - venting i. Lyrics

Look, I swear that life can be extremely scary, people and situations be temporary
That's why I feel like connection is so unnecessary
Or maybe that's the effects of my deeply rooted trauma
Broken mother and father created broken problems
And that problem was me, try not to link to my past
I wanna break the trauma chain and be mentally free
If imma grow I can't blaming my momma and dad
'Cause now I see they couldn't give me something they never had

Issues of abandonment got me stuck in this place
Where I reject a lot of love and start pushing away
You take some liking to the kid I'm like "f*ck out my face"
Then got the nerve to ask the question, how come you didn't stay?
I put my heart into these f*cking rhymes
Most my connections with women been through a trauma bond
Now I see what they mean when they say that love is blind
I always put the softest girls through the hardest times, damn
Look, I think I really need a therapist to help me calm all this anger and all this arrogance
And help me swallow this pride a nigga been carrying
And help me see that my trauma shouldn't be embarrassing
Internal pain should never leave you ashamed
Trying to tell my brain there's no such thing as a perfect man
Take the bandage off and just start embracing yo' scars
Real beauty can be discovered by basking in all yo' flaws

So look, I'm narcissistic, I'm insecure, and I'm really timid
I seek attention and validation from pretty women
I use my father to justify when a nigga trippin'
I think I know everything when it's time for me to listen
I tell myself I don't care when I really care a lot
I say I'm sorry, I'm only sorry 'cause I was caught
I'm steady judging and looking down like I've never fallen
When truthfully I got several skeletons in my closet
The other night I had woke up at 3AM and start crying
I called to God and I asked him help me reveal what I'm hiding
Give me guidance and lead the way 'cause I need to heal
I am a product of letting of all yo' emotions build
Make me a stronger and better man for my future kids
So they don't pickup unhealthy habits like daddy did
Imma speak life into 'em, and teach 'em to spread they wings
Support they dreams, and tell 'em they can do anything
And let 'em know never hide yo' problems behind a smile
Only so long you can hide the wounds of a broken child
That's the reason why a nigga be doin' all this venting
I keep a mic right beside me just like I'm Scottie Pippen

Listen, I swear we all the same,
We just a bunch broken people with some different names
We all battle pain, we all battle struggle
We all trying to keep balance hoping that we don't stumble
Look, I promise I ain't trying to ramble I'm just venting to you
I promise I ain't trying to ramble I'm just venting to you
Y'all came for bars then turn 'cause I ain't spitting for you
Nigga I'm just trying to tell my feelings to you
I promise I ain't trying to ramble I'm just venting to you
I promise I ain't trying to ramble I'm just venting to you
Y'all came for bars then turn 'cause I ain't spitting for you
Nigga I'm just trying to tell my feelings to you