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I'm so numb that I feel bored as f*ck and
I said I'm so numb, feel I took more than none
But this is more than love
See this is more than drugs
I gotta mourn or sum' until the morning sun
When the sun comes up I'm feeling more the same
I think I love this numb, but this is more than pain
See all the gorgeous rays as I'm engorged in flames
My heart is torn, detained, to some enormous chains

And I cant shake them
I shake them
Berate them
I hate them
They choke me
They broke me
Im hopelessly coping
In potions, I'm smoking
Your ashes I'm holding
I miss you
I hate you
I miss you
I hate you
All me and V wanted was to see you get your shit together
Couldn't stay close, cause you would burn us with your hell tethered
I was 12, believed there's so such thing as ever getting better
By the phone, ain't seen you in some years, while you were out wherever
22 and now my only hope is that you feel these letters
Reminding me of when I'd call for you and you would call back never
Please record your message
Through my head about a thousand times
A thousand why's, a thousand lies
Ironic though as now its I
Recording messages, once again at a precipice
And when I jump, I'm either gon' die or fly to the heavens with a
Shedded pestilence, soul will rest never restless
And if death of a pessimist leaves me breathless
That's best for me when