Daystar - my year // Lyrics

I just can't imagine,
Like letting myself ever get to a place
Where I loved myself so little
Like I did not give a shit about Keltie as a human being
And I was her
That's what's so sad
Is you're like
I can't believe I could treat myself so badly
Had the foresight
To pad the walls of my bedroom
So no one could hear me shout
And my head feels like I'm
Always underwater
I can't make out a sight or sound
Try to run away
Everywhere it's all the same
I can't help but think of
What could be
But I swear I'm too far away
Hiding in plain sight
I wish that I could disappear
Honestly tired of screaming
This year is my year
How can I grow
If I'm addicted to the fear
It's like every time I try to think
It becomes more unclear
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing
Is it all good?
Be honest
Could I have done it better?
I'm swimming
In deep waters
The tide just pulls me backwards
I made my bed and Imma lay my own filth
Intoxicated by the thoughts that aren't real
Try to run away
Everywhere it's all the same
I can't help but think of what could be
But I swear I'm too far away
Hiding in plain sight
I wish that I could disappear
Honestly tired of screaming
This year is my year
How can I grow
If I'm addicted to the fear
It's like every time I try to think
It becomes more unclear
Hiding in plain sight
I wish that I could disappear
Honestly tired of screaming
This year is my year
How can I grow
If I'm addicted to the fear
It's like every time I try to think
It becomes more unclear
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing
One thing
One thing
Baby we only just got one thing