Self-Sabotage Video (MV)

I stay sabotaging myself
Pass the Alchemist on the shelf
Passing out from self-medication like
I'm lashing out for this help
I don't wanna know death like
I don't wanna know you, no
I don't wanna know meth but
I break as bad as you do
(Break as bad as you do)
Look, let me bring you to speed
Cause I'm kinda off of that speed
My wants aren't my needs but my greed need a vaccine
'Cause my future kinda foreseen; Miami to the valley
I'm upper echelon, underneath the stars
Taurus in the heart, asking, what's my sign?
Call it off, calling bullshit!
Now we start with that bullshit
Finish smoking that good shit
Fake pulp in that pulpit
I swim inside of that ball pit of that ice cream
Okay, my dreams feel lucid
No way Jose, I'm juicin'
I bless'm demons; so ghoulish
It's ghastly but don't ask me if I'm doing fine
I mean afterward, we can have a word but
I'm on a perc and I'm doing lines
And you text me, eyes read (Red)
Like I left you there, it was on purpose
Bible verses and idol worship
Y'all just like makeup, shallow surface
Y'all just like me (You hate it)
Y'all just like me (You hate it)
Y'all just like me (You hate it)
Y'all just like me (You hate it)
Take a breath, for a little depth
Fear and Loathing with Johnny Depp
Looting chests, 'cause it matter less
If the pain in my chest just another test
And my crew pop like another window
Got a broken heart like a broken a window
My tunnel vision, it stays peripheral
What's in front of me?
Kind of temporal
I stay sabotaging myself
Pass the Alchemist on the shelf
Passing out from self medication like
I'm lashing out for this help
I don't wanna know death like
I don't wanna know you, no
I don't wanna know meth but
I break as bad as you do
(Break as bad as you do)
Going out on a limb
Like I'm picking fruit that's forbidden
I keep binging these sins
Like an Easter egg that stays hidden
Damn, self-awareness is crazy man
I should call it my ex
Tsunami flow, I'm so wavy man
I should call in a threat
Slow and steady with my entourage
Got a lot of guys that would kill for me
Got a ton drugs that can you make fly
Got a Rolly on and it's still for me
Take a trip for me, take your dress off
Take a pill for me, sit still for me
Taking all of this free will cause it's kill it all or be killed
My mentality got a lot of problems
So I hit the bottle and I try to solve'em
Scrolling down through these model pages
When I see them bluffing, I might try to call it
If you knew the hand I was dealt
Then you'd probably find something else to do
Besides gossip about me; I say it proudly
My name in your mouth is kind of rowdy
My dick in your mouth is so ironic
If I don't die, will I be iconic?
If I don't lie, will they trust the kid?
If I don't sin, can I get acquitted?
Should I quit this, see another vision?
When the lights dim it's like I'm on a mission
It's a broken system and I've got to fix it
All I witness is just more division
Pay attention to the common sense
Off the white, I've been on the fence
Gorilla-glued to the television
While my common shares got me kind of tense
True religions always got conditions
Superstitions always keep me driven
Crush it up and I f*ck it up and we chalk it up
To another addiction