Wake up, go to church. Stay stuck on a verse
Late up, tryin to figure how this pay stubs gonna work
Gotta the get the faith up, but this fake love, it don't save nothin's worth
So I just stay f*cked, and now I even got a demon in me sayin
F*ck this Earth
But I gotta lot to live for this day. I get it, but I'm far beneath this pain
You can literally see it in both of my eyeballs, but it's my fault, not believing his reign
If I knew of the influence he would have on my life, I'd stop and make me a change
But it's way too late, and I'm far too f*cked up to even have a thought that may be sane
Every job that I worked at fired me. How come I gotta be perfect entirely
You're tellin me "It's worth it, admire Me." Seein your book, verses society
I wonder how worth it dyin would be? There's only one person I can be
I gotta work with what I can see. Tryn to see the person who lied to me
But, pissin and moanin ain't gonna get nobody to sign a paycheck
Out of everything life has to offer, I'm sure the worst of I ain't faced yet
Tell me to turn right, but I bank left, doin anything I can for stage rep
With all the shit on my two shoulders, I don't know how the f*ck they ain't break yet
How come everything in my life's a f*ckin Do-or-Die
I'm survivin, but this shit is feelin like suicide
But nobody's willin walk inside these shoe's, but I
Feel like I'm losin it. God, I'm prayin help me through the night
God, do you hear me
I'm survivin but this shit is feelin like suicide. Suicide
Feel like I'm losin it. God, I'm prayin help me through the night
Tryin to be a man, but I ain't gotta clue. Got plenty of beer, but I stay outta food.
My kid gotta eat straight rice third night in a row, cuz all the bills are overdue. f*ck
They told me God's a plan for me, and I hope that it take over soon
Cuz that little voice in the back of my head be mockin me on every little thing that I say or I do
Everytime I go to bed I hear it sayin Your life ain't worth shit boy quit playin
When the f*ck you gonna get through yo thick brain? You're never gonna be more than a shit stain
Now I'm talkin back to it, shit I'm insane. I never thought that I would ever contemplate
Suicide, or even think about it this way
Maybe takin' that left was a mistake
But to this day, (yes) I been risky (yes). I been lookin in the mirror and I miss me. yes
And I really can't wait till this shit fades. yes
I don't know what to do if it stays
If you hear me, tell me what do my lips say? This shits way passed just kids play
Why did it take so long for it to hit me? (tell me) How in the hell am I gonna get paid
No job, but I owe a whole lot. All my life I been seeing what I don't got
Oh God, will I die? Shit I hope not. Then again it's pointless, I got no plot
I hold it down and I keep it real, admitting this hell is so hot
But I'll chamber my rounds and shoot at the field, and do it until I got no shots
How come everything in my life's a f*ckin Do-or-Die
I'm survivin, but this shit is feelin like suicide
But nobody's willin walk inside these shoe's, but I
Feel like I'm losin it. God, I'm prayin help me through the night
God, do you hear me
I'm survivin but this shit is feelin like suicide. Suicide
Feel like I'm losin it. God, I'm prayin help me through the night
Don't get me wrong. I'm glad everyday my eyes open up at dawn
And if you know me you would know that I'm f*ckin' strong
Shit, I do it for my kid and her lovely mom
But I can't seem to put somethin on the table for long. I ain't got luck at all
And I know that this life is short, but the bits of hell are so f*cking long
It's why I'm just doin what I'm good at. Makin' tracks, hangin out with the hood rats
Me being any other man never would last, so I'm gonna major in somethin that I could pass
(FUCK EM) I might be a bum rotting up under a bridge, but I'm done talkin this shit
That's it this front's droppin. I'm doin it for me - just Bahnsen
Even if mother f*ckers show no love. Imma kill it everytime I show up
So long as I keep breathin I'll keep feeding you tracks, like I've already blown up! (yes yes yes)
F*ck rap, it's a whole lot more than that to me. I can't let it go, I have to be
On top, just fathom the capacity of me livin so happily
Then I open my eyes and look all around. Shit, I gotta long way to go
I don't know how much deeper this water gon get, but you'll never see me losing hope
Imma make that my outcome. All that fantasizing, I'm now done
But still, when I look at the odds, I can't help it, I gotta ask how come
How come everything in my life's a f*ckin Do-or-Die
I'm survivin, but this shit is feelin like suicide
But nobody's willin walk inside these shoe's, but I
Feel like I'm losin it. God, I'm prayin help me through the night
God, do you hear me
I'm survivin but this shit is feelin like suicide. Suicide
Feel like I'm losin it. God, I'm prayin help me through the night