DBYoungjay - Everything i got Lyrics

I been trying everything I got blow
Leave me alone

I'd rather be on my own
Damn

Looking for love inside
Can't even say it, nah you got it
See, I done gave it everything I got
I done seen my brother dead

And I done seen my sister shot
And seen my momma struggle
That's the reason I went hit the block
Like Tim I had a harder way

I swear I ain't never have a lot
So I've been trying
I've been trying
I'm trying

Find some peace inside myself
I've been trying
Find some peace inside myself
Just trying to find some peace

Inside myself
If I end my f*cking life
I bet they all gon' come around
And yeah, I'm f*cked up bout my brother

So don't ask me why I'm down
Looking for love inside
Can't even say it, nah you got it
And I'm a war zone so when I'm riding

I can't even have you with me
Like, do I call on God too much
Or do I talk to him enough
I hate the fact I always feel alone

Still f*cked up how my brother gone
And momma say, boy, you so strong
Hard when I'm falling off but f*ck it know I'm
Holding on, and I'ma live this way

Until I'm motherf*cking gone
Depression it been hitting
And suicidal thoughts they on my mind
I'm steady stripping

And when I'm feeling down
I need love, but I just get so distant
Get in the stu and touch the mic
Cause that's my only way of venting

Thought I could call your phone
But damn, my nigga, how your life done ended
And every since that fentanyl touch the street

I swear my aunt, she been so different
How the f*ck know I'm so young
But I keep facing all this pain
How the f*ck you trier to change

And you died behind that gang
And my granny getting old
If she die, I swear to God
I end my life

That's on that f*cking gang
And tell my sister I've been proud
And how the f*ck I'm quiet
Cause I keep on smoking loud

And I keep on missing mildred
Yeah, I know it's been a while
But I know you looking down
I swear to God, I miss your smile

I miss your smile and your touch
And all this pain and just too much
I told my momma that I'm trying
But she see me giving up

Know I've been crying out for better days
And how I'm really from the bottom
Now the whole crowd scream my f*cking name
It's crazy how they're proud of me

A year ago, they doubted me
Like, why I think about dying so much
It gotta be a life that's better than this
And if dying is the only way to find out

Then f*ck it, it's worth taking a risk
I would've never showed no love
If I knew that it would come to this
I would've never gave you my all

If I knew that it would
Looking, for love inside, I can't even say it
Nah you got it
I swear to God, it was deep

Woulda got you tatted on my body
It's hard to pray for better days
When bad days just keep on piling
Like, is God hearing me

Or is that nigga even real
Can he see what I can see
But I know that God real a star
What Youngjay he gon' be that's on my life

On my soul, nigga
That's on my soul, nigga
I'd rather be alone
Star what I'm gon' be