DDD - Still Scarred Lyrics

I shed more tears at birth than I did when my homeboy died
Swear I used to feel pain now these days my body just overrides
The visions that cross my mind tear me apart when I'm alone at night
Picture him bleeding out gasping for air wish I could hold him tight
They say it gets better over time it's been months since then I know they lyin
It's more like no matter what comes we'll be alright
Give us was hard days but I'll survive
I came a long way from holding back pain and watching my tears fall
These last few months I realized shit can get real dawg
I don't tell nobody bout my problems this what I feel dawg
I done tried to put patches on my wounds but it won't heal dawg
Nah it won't heal dawg nah it won't heal dawg
Even if it heal I'm still scarred even if it heal I'm still scarred
Still scarred
Yeah
Brody living life in a grave I can't even ask if he's okay
I just take it day by day but why it gotta be this way
Some people put they Glocks inside a safe but I can never take it off my waist
I'm paranoid so if a nigga play he might end up laying on the pavement
I be always giving rarely taking double up my zeros like I'm agent
I been trying hard just to make it dreams the only thing worth chasing
Chasing dreams no sleep it's almost in reach
Sometimes I can't see the things you see in me
The things you see in me
I know being closed off makes it hard for you to love me
If I let you this close then you must be lucky
I came a long way from holding back pain and watching my tears fall
These last few months I realized shit can get real dawg
I don't tell nobody about my problems that's what I feel dawg
I done tried to put patches on my wounds but it won't heal dawg
Nah it won't heal dawg nah it won't heal dawg
Even if it heal I'm still scarred even if it heal I'm still scarred
Still scarred