D-Dub - Rage Inside Lyrics

You could never understand how I'm feeling
I may seem quiet but I feel like I'm screaming
I had a dream I was heading for the stars
But then I woke up when my head hit the ceiling
I f*cked school up I was under achieving
And when I went I was sent home for bringing weed in
It's mad I don't condone it now I'm grown
But I would of starved if it wasn't for me stealing
I was a little f*cker never did behave at school
I wern't the type of kid that miss could try and play the fool
I told her suck my dick bitch then I might obey the rules
Instead I jumped the fence while the other kids were playing ball
I used to hate life I wanted to erase it all
Then I started listening to virus and unbreakable
Music gave me hope and a vision I could change it all
My eyes are on the time because none of its replaceable
I've been dealing with this rage inside
I'm at a stage in life I'm not wasting time
It's kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind
I'm at a stage in life I'm not Wasting Time
I've been dealing with this rage inside
Its kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind
Age twelve didn't wanna play round
So I snuck a blade out everyone got chased down
I seen red I was aiming for my mates now
I couldn't stop myself until an older had my face down
That's when his mum sent the jakes round
Minor first offence but my mum begun to rage out
I tell myself I'm ment to be a f*ck up
My days are getting darker being followed by this grey cloud
Them old trends when my friends went and played out
I didn't wanna go home and thats why I stayed out
All day all night like I was on a steak out
Rolling my jay round I started to blaze loud
I let my fam down tryna make my mates proud
Mistaken faith I was snaked by the same pals
I feel the pain now mum was spaced out
I blame myself for when she had a mental breakdown
I've been dealing with this rage inside
I'm at a stage in life I'm not wasting time
It's kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind
I'm at a stage in life I'm not Wasting Time
I've been dealing with this rage inside
Its kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind
I was back and forth to court still I ain't be jail yet
They're relying on me dying they just wanna see dale dead
I'm sort of sure I'm being tortured by the lord
I'm living broke but I've gone hard like stale bread
I hide my feelings like the baggies where the scales kept
I was putting in the work while
They all slept
I tell the truth but they don't care what dale said
Maybe they ain't failed yet or dealt with betrayal yet
I grew up on a coldisac where none of us had cable
Mum was flipping whiz to try put food on the table
I turned out the same started bagging up the grade
This is my life my lyrics f*ck a label
I made a change when god sent me an angel
My son was born disabled had to fight through neonatal
I was praying he would make it there was times I couldn't take it
But still I had to hold myself together like a staple
I've been dealing with this rage inside
I'm at a stage in life I'm not wasting time
It's kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind
I'm at a stage in life I'm not Wasting Time
I've been dealing with this rage inside
Its kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind
Music is expression its hard like my life is
That's why I'm walking on road clenching my fist
Now a days your lucky of you catch a blast on my spliff
I blaze away the pain cuz I'm sick of living like this
Now it's getting to the point where I might flip
When I do it's going off like a light switch
I'm what deprived is with a mic gripped
Fight to the death never put the blade to my wrist
It's been a mad struggle I never had f*ck all
Felt the wrath of mums rage but never felt my dad's buckle
I've been in bad trouble tryna make my stack double
Life's one dark road leading to a black tunnel
You think that's f*cked well death is the escape route
Read the bible pray to god he still not gunna save you
I'm not another puppet going crooked for a fake view
I've chosen music to try and find my breakthrough
I've been dealing with this rage inside
I'm at a stage in life I'm not wasting time
It's kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind
I'm at a stage in life I'm not Wasting Time
I've been dealing with this rage inside
Its kind of mad how I made this rhyme
That's just me and my creative mind