Dead Method - Bleach Lyrics

I've been sitting in my empty apartment
Staring at the red stain on the carpet
There's a monster in me and I fed it
Chasing after the dream with bad credit

And I don't wanna go outside
There's nothing for me there
I just wanna stay inside
I'd feel safer

And I feel so ashamed as I circle the drain

Friends don't call, family don't care
In my void of endless despair
All I do is bleach my hair
And hope that they don't notice the cracks across the surface
And the look on my face

And I feel so ashamed as I circle the drain