DeCoy - Permanent Failure Lyrics

All my real friends have left
They spent their whole lives chasing crosses
Shortened down to a simple synopsis
I tripped then fell and kept on counting my losses
And now I live with the regret of what it could've been
When you can't look yourself in the mirror
Where can you rest your head
I opened up my insides and gave the spiders a place to nest
Tiny cuts lined with salt
Do you consider me blessed
My problems are solved because the rest are dead
And everyone I thought was true wanted to see my end
So f*ck you because it just began
Im not the one who cried first
I don't care how it much hurt
I only want whats mine and what's mine's failure
Beg and plead
Steal and bleed no more
Stitching the seems
Breaking my nails against a locked door
Whenever it rains it pours
It takes and breaks whatever ambition I could afford
I want to see me change
Don't want to be this way
Ive had so much time to think
This is a mistake that just won't go away
I want what's mine but what's mine is a f*cking failure