Chasing Grail Video (MV)

Shit been crazy lately man
Got a lot of shit on my mind man
I tell ya
They didn't believe in me
Now they seeing me
Mirror broken on the wall now it's clear to me
Had to leave behind the people that were close to me
They were foes to me
That's what they chose to be
You lose friends as you age that's how it's supposed to be
I was quiet as a kid nobody noticed me
Now I'm on my own
Gun on my hip
Streets caught me slipping twice
Karma was a bitch
No matter hard the situation is
I never said shit
Pistol under my pillow when I'm in bed bitch
If I smoke when I text I forget to send shit
Don't go to church but I still say my amens quick
Can't blame me for the way I am
I see roses full of thorns I stay away from them
Cops pull me over
It was normal then
Hands on ya head
Pistol to my dome
Man I thought I was dead
They threw my beanie down
They want to see me down
My city so damn racist man I can see it now
But I don't give a f*ck
I'm open minded
Looking for my purpose in this life yea I'll find it
Had to bleed
Had a dream
Had to cry
Had the beam
There were times I couldn't eat
9 to 5 on my feet
When I couldn't make enough
Long nights I couldn't sleep
It's the shit I had to do
If I want to live I got to eat
I'm on my own
Yea
I'm on my own
Yea
Show me love while I'm here
Not when I'm gone yea
2 wrongs don't make it right
But at the end you lose it all
Lord don't let me fall
If my mama don't pick up
I don't know who to call
When I'm feeling down
I spend some bread at the mall
Never looking down
So I'm always looking tall
My teachers told me I could do it
Ima do it all
I don't surf I'm just trying to catch a wave
Eyes wide open man
It's been like 4 days
Not stopping until my dad
Don't got to work a day
If you ain't talking money
Then please stay away
I'm on my own
I don't know who to call
Lord don't let me fall
I just wanna ball