Demise - Hallowed Heights Lyrics

I am nothing
I hate my existence
I just wanna die
To escape from my prison
But I can't
That prison is my self
How do you evade
The other voice that's In your cell
Goddamn
I need some f*cking help
It's like I'm on crutches
At the bottom of a well
I keep on pushing
But I'm always gonna fail
The path that takes me home
Is gonna walk me into hell
I'm headed straight for it
This life that I'm living is
Holding the door
And I can't ignore it
And I can't afford to
But I'm gonna pay
For sins and the way
I always change nothing
Ask why its the same
Every single day
In every single way
My life I ain't adding up
Do you have some spare change
My death is coming up
Do you have a spare grave
Hey
I'm looking for a way
I can't find a path that doesn't lead astray
The voices in my head tell me I should runaway
And die in California in shallow grave
Hallowed heights
Can I see the ocean on a starry night
And think of all the things that
Went wrong and right
Take a step back and look at my life
Like what the f*ck happened