Demoxys - i know Lyrics

When you're sitting at home, in your bedroom all alone
Do you wonder to yourself if people'd care that you'd be gone?
Well, I call that a lifestyle, cause I just can't stray from it
I just tend to freestyle cause it's every f*cking day of it
I just had this feeling in my motherf*cking chest
That my life is almost over, I can't handle all the stress
So I'm asking all my peers if this is all a f*cking test
And I guess they all ignored me, man, who would've f*cking guessed?
That is not me and I know that I will not get better
Not with the rhyme schemes and not with the effort
Never been happy a day of my life, I'm stressing, I'm stressing, I'll be sad forever
I know it don't matter, I know you don't care
I know that I'm bitching cause life isn't fair
I know that I'm living inside a nightmare
I know, I know, I know
I know I'll never be happy today
I guess tomorrow's a whole 'nother day
But tomorrow's been coming for 5,480 tomorrow's like down to the day
And it still hasn't come, it'll never arrive
There's just no point so I better just die
But I can't see the light cause I live in the darkness
I'm heartless, a shell, and I feel like a carcass
F*ck I've been abused by the people that claim that they love me
I know that it's bullshit so shut the f*ck up
I know that you do not know what it's like to have felt like you're never enough
Shit digs right into your soul
Shit makes you feel like you're dead on the floor
My soul is rotten right down to the core
I guess I'm not even alive anymore I
Never cite the right sources, ride in my corpses
Skeleton horses
Bitch I ride coast to coast with my forces
Specially armed to teeth with white orphans, man
I might feel like I might pop a xan
Rapper, drug, I'll do what I can
Off the wall, I might f*ck a fan
I'll just off myself cause I don't give a damn